Join us on Feb 3rd for “Keep it in the Family.” Works by Philadelphia tattoo artists.
Show runs from 7-10pm, refreshments will be served, good times will be had by all.
NYE was filled with false hope and hallow happiness. That’s really all you ever brought to the table. But you showed me I could care about someone other than myself again. You motivated and inspired me to do all the things I said I would do but never brought myself to actually following through on. So in a way I am grateful for that. But it’s that same reason that makes this really difficult to let go of.
The loss seems overwhelming, but it was such a short amount of time out of my life. I know soon you will just be a blur and a lesson. That’s what I keep telling myself and holding on to. That’s all they ever become anyway. Just a distant memory of what once was. The details and feelings will fade away. I just wish I could get there faster.
Today was the day I decided it would just be best to disconnect and fall apart. I’m just stringing myself along and hurting myself in the process. I can’t make you believe. I can’t fix you. I can’t help you. I can’t make you see all that I see in you. I don’t believe it yet, but I am accepting it. I fell in love with someone more shallow and selfish than I am. My mistake. You don’t see me any differently than you’ve seen anyone else in your life. In my eyes, you broke me open and let new light in. In your eyes, I am just another insignificant encounter. Just a girl who amused you for a short period of time and who was just as quickly forgotten.
I don’t want to feel insignificant anymore. I want to mean something to someone. I don’t want to feel like I have to work for a relationship only to see it fall apart in front of my eyes and there is nothing I can do to save it. My mantra for the year is stop being so hard on myself. And stop making time for people who won’t do the same for me. I need to stop being so shallow and selfish and lazy and stuck in my comfort zone. I need to branch out, accept new experiences and people into my life. See new places, say yes more. I need to appreciate the few I do have in my life and who love me and who have stuck by me through thick and thin… through being a shitty person to the person I am becoming. 2012 was started on a lie I let myself believe. I refuse to let this become an omen or a pattern for the year.
“and me i’m in the bathroom crying out my eyelids because it’s hard to be a man when you are scared like a little kid. The world has become a little too mean and I can’t see the point of patient love when everyone just wants to get fucked” — Saturday as Usual | Bright Eyes
Could they make an instant cure for trust issues? If so, that would be great.
I think I’m in trouble
It’s happened very quickly and I feel irrational and out of control. I think I’m falling in love. With everything about you.
Sometimes it scares me how easily I can completely forget about people. Forget the meaning they had in my life after such a short amount of time. On one hand I love it, less baggage to carry with me weighing heavily on my mind. On the other hand, it sometimes makes me feel like a complete apathetic, uncaring, jaded piece of shit.
Pika pika strikes again! #pikachu #pokemon #halloween #pulsebeautyacademy #paulmitchell #awesome #costumes #nerd #nightmarebeforechristmas #jackskellington #newsboy (Taken with instagram)
Favorites. #massyhair #Halloween #poppunk #blink182 #takingbacksunday #featherextensions #hair #music #cupcakes (Taken with instagram)
God damn truth (Taken with instagram)
Too truthful again. (Taken with instagram)
I’ve been feeling this way a lot again lately. I don’t know why. I feel lost in a constant cloud of delirium. I need a major life change or I am going to go insane.
I dreamt of you last night. The first time in a long time. It made me wake up with that pummeling feeling that I don’t know when/if I could ever be as whole heartedly happy as when I was with you. As happy as I am now it doesn’t hold a candle of life with you in it. I miss knowing I am really, truly, happy, deep down to the core of my existence. I haven’t had it since you, and I’m getting exhausted in the process of finding it again.